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Crazy that another year has passed since I wrote in this thing. Seems to be a yearly event to write on live journal. Anyways a small update....
1. i'm single
2. i will work at Solutions, i am loving it! The girls here have becomes my best friends Kari and Marissa are amazing!
3. i graduate from UF in december! crazy!
4. i have been on a healthy life style kick and i love it! healthy eating and seeing a personal trainer.
5. i turned 21 last december, wow what a crazy feeling!
6. the Lord has blessed me with an amazing life and church group.
7. Crusade is still a big part of my life and I love going every week.
8. i love how family can make everything better and my parents and i are even closer than ever
9. mema and poppie are both going on 81 and i get to see them every chance i get
10. juliana is 21 as well and graduates may 2011, she get to see eachother as much as we can!
11. the rest of my friends are in the process of turning 21 as well. it has been an awesome year and will be an amazing year to come.
12. i love life and enjoy every minute of it! :)

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life throws you curve balls! I officially a GATOR!! Attending the University of Florida for Elementary Education. I am again not dating Zack, but did attempt it fall of last year. It was good while it lasted. My life is crazy and I can't explain to you how busy I am. But God is right beside me, hold my hand, being my rock and my foundation. I am currently a bridal consultant for Solutions Bridal, an amazing salon that i love working for.

seems weird that i was writing in this almost one year ago today. crazy! well life is great, my mom is getting married in July! im very excited, i love him, his name is Bill :)

i must go write a paper, i will try and write in this more often!


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This journal turns out to be a very good collection of what my life has been like for the past 5 years. It turns out that i write very passionatly. No one i know even reads this anymore, so this is really for my own satisfaction. I can't believe that im sitting here in Gainesville, FL writing in my livejournal from high school. College is amazing! Life is going really well right now, im applying to UF this summer and im currently serving at the Olive Garden. It is amazing! I love my job and my friends as well. Im studying elementary education and looking to be a kindergarten teacher! :) I just wanted to update you a little. Im currently not with Zack anymore, but i do have a wonderful boyfriend named Brian. we are going on his Beta formal in three weeks! Very exciting! Life is great!

Love always,

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you hurt me more than you will ever know..but i take it

you make me cry more than anyone ever will...but you the only one to wipe away the tears

you seem to enjoy ripping my heart out and laughing in the act

sometimes i wonder why i love you...

im reminded at we look into eachothers eyes and still get those butterfly's. this was love.


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hello to all,

i am currently doing really well.

im on indoor dance team...VARSITY BABY!!

i am back together with zack...as far as i know.

my mom has a new boyfriend, his name is Carlos.

my dual enrollment is going excellent!

its winter now!!

my grandparents are coming down for thanksgiving! so thats exciting!

anywho...just wanted to update you!

today im headed to class and then practice!

maybe some shopping!


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Well i guess this whole break up thing hasn't really hit me yet. When my Senior Homecoming came around and i was dateless, it hit me really hard. Im single! What am i suppose to do with that? I havn't been single in two years.

Well to be honest with you...i hated it. I still hate it and will for a long time. I was having an amazing time with all my best friends, dancing like a maniac and then that song came on. Liz and i looked at each other, knowing that it was both of our "songs", so we danced together, sad we were, but atleast we had eachother.

It seems to me that men just seem to want to fuck me over these days. I just don't understand. I had been with him for two years, all he had to do was show up for 4 hours. Thats it, just so i would have someone there that cared about me. But instead i was stuck, looking around at every other happy couple in the entire place. Ya, most of my friends didn't have dates, but i ALWAYS had him. Well atleast it seemed like always. I began to think, i really do feel single. It just had never hit me, i mean, i sit at home on the weekends, so its not like i party. And during the week i babysit and have class, so its not like i meet people there. So pretty much, im in my own little world, only thinking about what i have to get done that day and well him.

Well i have come to the conclusion, that HE shouldn't be in my thoughts any longer. I am not in his, not matter what he says. I know this is going to be hard, i have seen so many of my best friends so through it, but i must do it. For the both of us. He needs to live his college life and be the guy he wants to be. I want the best for him and I both. Im living my life just the way i always did, except no one to talk to at night or spend holidays with.

So just in case you were wondering, it just now hit me...

im alone and single.

Lauren E. Berry
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Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
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i hate men with a passion
i wish i could be a lesbian....it sucks that i don't like girls..

so if you think im fat to....do tell cause no one else does...ok thats great!

just venting....

its game time baby!

The Guradian Comes out soon! yay! good movie

Lauren E. Berry (single)

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Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.

You don't realize how much you care about someone until they don't care about you.

It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.

We laughed until we had to cry, we loved right down to our last goodbye, but over the years we'll smile and recall for just one moment we had it all.

Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours.

Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas in little kids heads that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after.

Every happy couple has at least one breakup behind them.
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1. Ever been given an engagement ring?
not yet

2. Longest friendship?
katie bracht! fricken like 7 years baby!

3. Last gift you received?
roses from my mommy

4. How many times have you dropped your cell?
oh many!, toilet, cemet, on my car hood

5. When's the last time you worked out?

6. Thing you spend a lot of money on?
food and clothes and gas

7. Last food you ate?
ham sandwich

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes and tallness

9. One favorite song?
I write sins not tragedies

11. High school you attended:
GCHS! So sharks!!

12. Cell phone service provider:

13. Favorite mall store:

14. Longest job ever had:
Watermark Grille, dessert girl

15. Do you own a pair of dice?:
of course!

16. Do you prank call people?:
it used to be a regular habit

17. Last wedding attended?:
well i go to many that i cater, but actually attending....My cousins

18. First friend you'd call if you won the lottery:
my mom!! then zack, then cierra, then julie, then katie, then jennie

19. Last time you attended church:
3 weeks ago

21. Biggest lie you have heard?
there are many

23. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends?
applebees and moes....prob my fav. is my house!

24. Can you cook?
im italian! hello! i dunno ask all the people i cook for. Does asking for seconds and thirds count as a compliment?

25. What car do you drive?
White Cougar

26. Best kisser?
Zackary Runyon

27. Last time you cried?:
this mornin when i pulled into my last first day of school! Senior year!

28. Most disliked food?

29. Thing you like most about yourself?:
my leadership skills

30. Thing you dislike most about yourself:
my lack of being able to give out tasks

32. Longest shift you have worked at a job?
when i work for my dad it can be days with little sleep in between

33. Favorite movie?
Click, Oceans 11, Step Up, the list goes on

34. Can you sing?:
you could say that

35. Last concert? Rascall Flatts! ya julie!

36. Last kiss? aprox. a month ago

37. Last movie rented?: Date Movie...dumb!!

38. Thing you never leave home without?; cell and lipgloss

39. Favorite vacation spot? Solermo, Italy and Cicily

40. Do you like Chinese food? only when i crave it

42. Is your room clean?: right now it is....thats rare, im never in it

43. Laptop or desktop computer?: desktop, i hate laptops

44. Favorite comedian?: anyone taht can make me laugh

46. Sleep with or without clothes?: without :)

47. Who sleeps with you every night?: no one

48. Long distance relationships work? its under human testing right now

49. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?: twice

50. Pancakes or french toast?: french toast

51. Do you like coffee?: yes i love it

52. How do you like your eggs?: scrambled

53. Do you believe in astrology?: its fun

54. Last person you talked to on the phone?: mommy

55. Last person on your missed call list?: cierra

56. McDonalds or Burger King?: burger king, i love that place

57. Number of pillows?: it used to be at least 4, but now i have this theraputic pillow! UGH!

58. What are you wearing right now?: blue shorts

60. Pick a lyric, any lyric or song?: im givin up on love, cause loves givin up on me

61. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? strawberry, and it has to be Jam no jelly

62. Can you play pool?: sure

63. Do you know how to swim?: yea

64. Favorite ice cream?: cookie dough

65. Do you like maps?: oh ya baby

66. Tell me a random fact about yourself?: i LOVE smoothies

68. Ever attend a theme party?: oh ya baby

69. What is your favorite season? winter, colder is better

70. Last time you laughed at something stupid? like 10 minutes ago, Full House is on!!

71. What time did you wake up this morning? 6:15

72. Best thing about winter? everything, i LOVE winter

73. Last time a cop gave you a ticket? april

75. Name of your first pet? sugar

76. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated? i don't really care

77. What are you doing this weekend? Game, Movies, Work and Work

79. What is the third letter of your name?: U

80. How old are your pets?: 5 and 2 years old

81. What color is your backpack? i dont carry backpacks

82. Are you sick?: no

84. Is the bathroom open?: ummm ya

87. Are you smiling?: not really

88. Do you have on eyeliner?: of course

89. Do you miss someone right now? everyminute of the day

90. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go? back to italy

91. Do you have a Myspace? nope

92. Are you in high school?: unfortunetly! this is my last year baby!

93. Do you have a crush?: as always! (zr)

94. What is your favorite nickname for yourself?: Lo

95. What color is your bathing suit?: i have like 12

97. Did you go on vacation last month? California baby! Jennie and Julie!

98. Have you ever been on a cruise?: many!!!

99. Do you have a sister?: i wish!
[[ wheres 100 ? ]]
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